Tuesday night  the stitches from the workshop’s surgeries were removed, yes, “real” stitches that have been seen in x-rays and similar  scanning in major hospitals. During  the entities’ work with me  last week, they worked deeply on my  lumbar  and cervical spines, and the spinal stenosis in both places. I was told not to do any exercise  for a week, until the stitches were removed. Now I am allowed to gently resume exercise. It’s been over two months since I’ve exercised because of the back and neck pain and extension of that pain to my legs and to the  nerves in my hands and arms. No pain now but I’m weak from lack of exercise. It seemed time to gently start again.

As I lay on my exercise table and began to move my legs gently, I felt some resistance in my body, then cramping. Aaron suggested that I pause and bring attention to the experience of resistance. I immediately had an image of being a small human  being bullied by a large person. He threw a very large rock that crushed my left foot. I could see the being that I had been, walking only on the heel of that foot and with much pain, through  the remainder of that lifetime, and with deepening anger and judgment.

I’ve worked with such past life images before. The first step was just to hold compassion for the human I had been and for the person who attacked me. Bringing compassion also to the pain in that past life foot and in my present leg and foot which has been badly cramping for several months. After some time of that, I did some forgiveness meditation; forgiving this man and asking forgiveness for any ways I have harmed others.

I also spent some  needed time with the horse who rolled over on me 60 years ago and crushed this left leg. I’ve spent a lot of time with this horse! He was terrified and I pushed him too far!

My left leg was spasming with cramps. I began to move it gently,  offering love to the leg and then the leg of that karmic ancestor.  A friend who was with me offered support, energetically, with skillful movement, and by holding the foot. Finally, I felt ready to begin some gentle movement as a lot of energy poured through my body. I basically said to my leg and  foot, it’s time to let go, to move on! No force but the energy of compassionate intention.

Is it real? I cannot promise you  that but only can  share  my experience. When I stood up after  an  hour, I was able to walk using my whole foot, flexible and pain free, for the first time in many months. I’m reminded that healing happens on many levels; the spiritual, the energetic, the emotional, mental and physical.  For deepest  healing, it must all come together.

What about this body we call our earth, and that cries out for healing? We cannot force healing or opening to wholeness but only invite it at every  level. What about the sentient  beings on earth, cramped and reactive with fear and pain? What about our beloved country, presently so torn apart. Where is healing? What is the balance  of loving intention, and knowing the Ever-healed? Can we offer a statement from the heart, “it’s time”? I believe that together we can do it.