Category: Dharma Journal

Dharma Journal – October 2017 – Part 2 of 2

Barbara Brodsky continues introducing her new book ‘Out of the Shadows, The Path of Clear Light’. This is Part 2 of 2, she will continue sharing the teachings in this book in the near future. Aaron dictated this to Barbara over the summer at her cabin. Sept. and Oct. videos were recorded at her cabin in August.

Video and transcript, the video is also closed captioned.


Transcript, there are a few edits in the transcript that are not on the video.

October 2017 – Dharma Journal
Out of the Shadows – The Path of Clear Light

My blessings and love to you all. I am Aaron. We’re still here at the cabin, with the lake in the background, and the woods. I hope you’re enjoying the energy here. I’m going to pick up on the book now, from where I left off, not in its entirety but excerpting  This is what I would consider section 2 of the book.

“Now let us consider the human experience. The human knows pain in the body, and in the mind. This pain is a reality, but not an ultimate reality. However, to declare it somewhat less real can be cruel. The human experiencing such pain knows the reality of it. For that human, in that moment, it exists. Compassion, which enters into the suffering of another, also know the reality of it.”

“How do we respond to these human challenges with wisdom and compassion, without taking pain, fear and contraction as permanent, and as owned by the self. What is this self who is experiencing, we first might ask. In Dhamma discussions, we sometimes speak of no self. No self does not mean you don’t exist. It simply means that what you are is the expression of many conditions, all coming forth in this moment. None of these expressions can be called self, nor can their totality. Nevertheless, something does exist.”

“We do not say, this set of conditions would appreciate a certain set of conditions on that set of conditions. We use the shorthand, ‘I would like some salt on my soup’. ‘I’ is a concept, summarizing a set of conditions. ‘Salt’ is a concept, summarizing a set of conditions. ‘My’ is a concept, summarizing a set of conditions. ‘Soup’ is a concept, summarizing a set of conditions. But we all understand what is meant by the phrase.  In the same way, when we think, ‘I would like this discomfort to go away’, ‘I is a concept.  ‘Discomfort’ is a concept. When we personalize such concepts, and make them into a self-identity, we suffer. I am not the discomfort, but it has arisen from conditions, and it must be attended to.”

“The one experiencing these concepts is the mundane realm experiencer. The conscious mind, sometimes called the small self. There is also the level of awareness, the one who witnesses the mundane consciousness, the higher self. For the human trained in mindfulness, the small self, or mundane consciousness, is the aspect of mind that relates to whatever arises, that attempts to fix or control that arisen object in order to somehow become comfortable again. When a challenge arises in the mind or body, and the human attempts to deny it, that denial takes energy. If the human attempts to fix it, that attempt takes energy. The contraction of denial, or fix, gives energy to the object that has arisen, ironically, holding it more firmly in place. How ironic that denying our troubles is like trying to outrun our shadow on a sunny day!”

“If a strong wind blows, the tree that bends and sways, dances with the wind, will survive. The tree that is rigid, will snap and break. The question is not whether things will push at you, but how you relate to that push.”

As an aside, many of you who have worked with me for years know that this has been a heart of my teaching. How to dance with the push. Continuing.

“Imagine a sudden, heavy downpour that wets and chills you. Will you stand outside, ranting in anger at the weather, or will you seek shelter? You could scream to exhaustion at the cold and rain, thusly depriving yourself of the energy to find a place that is warm and dry. Until you lie soaked and shivering on the Earth. What benefit derives from such fear-based reaction to what we experience? The habitual reaction to a push is one of the mammal: fight, flight or freeze. But, you came into the incarnation to transcend such ancient patterns, and demonstrate the ability to live from the heart.”

“Fight, freeze and flight impulses involve contraction. This contracted state arises out of conditions. It is impermanent. It is not self. By that I mean, contraction is not the Unconditioned essence, but is merely arisen from conditions, with no ultimate reality. The fact of contraction is not a problem, but a teacher. A vital practice when mindful of contraction is to ask, ‘right here with contraction, where is spaciousness? Right here with darkness, where is light?’”

“Yes, I am equating spaciousness unto light. When you harden yourselves with contraction of body and mind, how can the radiance of the Unconditioned shine in? How can your inner radiance shine out? Here is an essential starting point. While light and spaciousness are direct expressions of the Unconditioned and can never be lost in the ultimate sense, still you must retain a connection, and not turn your back to the sun.”

As an aside here, this takes us to the heart of our human experience, our habitual reactivity to the push. Hardening, closing out the light that would shine in, and closing out your inner light. It is essential to begin to recognize the parallels of light and spaciousness. It’s the next step.

Returning to the reading.

“In the empowering words of the Buddha, ‘If it were not possible, I would not ask you to do it’.  You have free will to choose, spaciousness or contraction. Darkness or light. You came into the incarnation to know your divinity, and remember the ability to live from your light. The purity of the human heart sees the impulses that drag you down, and knows them for what they are. An impulse arises from conditions, and has no ultimate reality. There is no need to be enslaved by it. But what if you reacted from unconscious habit to the storms of life, to the rain and winds? There you lie in the mud soaked, and shivering. What next? Awareness notes, wet, cold, disappointed, angry, afraid. Whatever is predominant. One greets these unpleasant mind and body states with compassion.”

Again, an aside: this is the heart of it. There is so much habitual reaction, when disappointment, fear, anger, pain arise, to contract and push them away. And contact with your innate compassion is lost. The essential practice is to learn to relate with what arises, from the heart, with compassion, even while there is fear and anger. Not denial of the fear, anger or negativity, not denial of the pain, but right there with the true aversion to what has arisen, compassion for the human.

I continue to read.

“This expression of free will to choose what is wise, and compassionate, is the heart of human learning. It means you have the ability to say no to eons of old, habitual patterns that have pulled you down into the muck. I repeat again, please listen closely, you have the ability to choose to live in the light.”

“I understand that at first, to choose thusly can be terrifying. As long as you merely react and continue to believe you have no choice, you hide in the belief of powerlessness. What if you truly are powerful beyond measure? You say you desire power, but you also desire to be loving, so power often frightens you, because the most intense emotions are not yet purified. There is fear you may backslide and enact those emotions. You then perpetuate the perceptions that seem to prove you are powerless.”

“The first step then is to know that you have free will. You always have choice. That choice is often between listening to the many voices of fear, or to the voice of love. You must learn to listen carefully. Fear often seems to scream loudly. Love comes as a whisper. Only the heart’s awareness can hear that whisper, but it is always there, if you will learn to listen.”

“So you move through your human life, asking how to discern this whisper through all the loud voices that seem perpetually to echo in your head.”

“If you move to the exit of a dark cave, have you any difficulty discerning where there is light, and where there is darkness? You know the direct experience of light. With the cave and bright sunlight, the distinction is clear. But sometimes there may be confusion, within the shadows, for the eyes that mingle light and darkness.”

“How do we know the light within the fields of darkness. I am going to repeat that. How do we come to know the light within the fields of darkness? It is not so difficult.”

End of reading for today.

The next section of the book will begin to go into specific practices, to center yourself in light, even when you are experiencing darkness, pain, fear, anger and other negative experience. How to ground yourself in that light without denial of the negativity. The book moves more directly into what I call the practice of Clear Light after these preliminary practices as part 3, and part 4, moving into the practice of Clear Light.

I hope by this time that you are seeing this, October I presume, the book itself may be available. So some of you may enjoy reading the book even as you watch these Dhamma dialogues and hear some of my thought about them. Once we have the book available, I will read a bit more quickly and spend more time talking to you about the practices, which will be important as we move more directly into the clear light practice. I will also be asking you to practice what I’m suggesting, not just listen, so it becomes a firm ground for you, and you can access it.

My blessings and love to you. Thank you for being with me today.

Added in mid-October. Editing and production are taking longer than we expected. Aaron will not read more from the book, but offer a different topic in November and December. The book should (hopefully) be available by early December.

Dharma Journal | September 2017

Part 1 | New Book by Aaron – Out of the Shadows: The Path of Clear Light
Dharma Journals for September and October – Aaron will be sharing part of his new book to be published this fall.

Dharma Journal teachings from Aaron channeled by Barbara Brodsky.

Video is closed captioned.
Aaron channeled by Barbara Brodsky at her cabin: August 31, 2017

Barbara: Hello, and welcome to my cabin. This is Barbara. Aaron will incorporate in a minute. This beautiful cabin is where I’ve spent my summers for 20 years. For the most part, this is where I’ve written my books. Sitting here with the view that you can see around me, with screens on three sides, and skylights above, I feel like I’m sitting in a tree house in the woods. It’s a very inspiring and beautiful place to write. It’s also very quiet, with peaceful energy. I’m glad you’re here with me.

When you last saw me, I was suffering from hay fever, and that has passed. I am healthy and happy, and in love with my woods.

Now it’s time for the September Dharma Dialogue. This summer Aaron dictated a book to me much the way he dictated Human over 20 years ago. At the beginning of the summer he said, “Will you take dictation? I would like to write a book.” Each day he spoke a few pages and I typed them out as he spoke. The end result, about 3 weeks ago, was a book called Out of the Shadows: The Path of Clear Light. I find it very beautiful. My thanks to Dan Muir, Roann Altman and Nicholas de Paul, who have worked with the editing and the creation of the book. Many others helped too, but these three especially.

Aaron said to me last week, when we discussed the fall Dharma Dialogues, that he wanted to go through the book over the fall. It’s not a long book. Like Human, just a few words on most pages. He said he’d like to start in September and go through the four months, September through December, each month doing a portion of the book; literally reading the book and talking about it so he can share some of his thoughts about it with you. So that’s the plan; that’s where we are today.

Enough said from me. I’m going to invite Aaron to incorporate and do whatever he plans to do. It’s been such joy writing this; I can’t say writing; taking his dictation, hearing his thoughts on this book, and watching him create the book. He always knew exactly where he was going. We didn’t have to reshuffle big blocks of text. It just flowed. He knew exactly where he was going. And as I thought about it afterward, the book really is almost a syllabus of his 30 years of teaching. Through those 30 years, I never knew where he was going, but he did.  It has unfolded so beautifully; the book really picks it up from the beginning and goes right through.

So, I hope you’ll enjoy this and find it valuable, as I did, and join us for all four parts, as this comes together. I’m going to pause now and let Aaron incorporate.

Aaron: My blessings and love to you all. I am Aaron. As Barbara said, welcome to our woods, which inspired part of the book. I call it, The Path of Clear Light, and the radiant light has inspired me. Right now, the sun is coming out. I don’t know if you can see it behind me. It’s fascinating to watch the play of the clouds and the sun, the light streaming through the trees. When the sun goes behind a cloud, it’s still there, but the woods grows dark. And then the sun emerges from the clouds again and the woods grows bright. We can see the whole show and it’s beautiful.

When Barbara came out in May to prepare the cabin for the summer, I asked her, may we create this book? She was delighted, of course, and I thank her for that. I did not take up her whole summer but an hour or two a day, dictating to her, and more time in her meditation, talking to her about what I was dictating. This is some of what I want to share. Although the book stands alone, and does not need any additional text, there are things that might enrich it for you

So, I’m going to read. I’m going to offer pauses, as some pages only have a few words. Then you may pause and reflect before I move on to the next page. I’m also going to add a few thoughts, that, as I said, may enrich the book for you. As you read the transcript, please be aware this is not the final formatting of the book, where there may be only a few lines on a page, and text centered.

Today there is much reading but later in the season, when the book is available, I will offer more elaboration on the text and practices.

Out of the Shadows: The Path of Clear Light

Contraction and spaciousness

Darkness and light

Fear and love

All conditioned objects

(let us call them dhammas, a more elegant term)

arise when the conditions are present for their existence

and dissolve when those conditions cease.

Contraction, darkness, and fear

Are such conditioned objects.

They will cease when the conditions out of which they arose have dissolved.

They have no ultimate reality.

The rainstorm will arise when the atmospheric conditions are present. When those conditions pass, the sky will clear. When clouds pass away, we experience the blue sky.

When contraction passes, what remains?

When darkness passes, what remains?

When fear passes, what remains?

Awareness, spaciousness, light, and love

do not arise and cease.

However, they do seem to come and go

into and out of your human experience.

They are direct expression of the Unconditioned. That means they are always present, although not always perceived.

What is a direct expression of the Unconditioned? When you see sunlight shining on the ground, you know the sun is shining, even though your back is turned to it. We might say this perceived light is a direct expression of the sun. However, in this case, both are conditioned objects. The sun exists due to mundane conditions, so its light also exists due to mundane conditions.

Awareness, spaciousness, light and love, as direct expressions of the Unconditioned, need nothing to exist except for the Unconditioned itself, the Eternal. Thus they do not arise and cease, and are always present, though not always perceived.

When awareness, spaciousness, light or love are not experienced,

this does not mean they have passed away,

only that they are not in your field of experience at this moment.

The consciousness that may recognize these dhammas is not open.

Turn your back to the window.

Has the sun ceased to shine just because you no longer see it?

Of course not. Only a perspective has changed.

This is only a metaphor, because as I noted above, the sun is a conditioned object, meaning it is impermanent. The very nature of the Unconditioned is that it is eternal and cannot be destroyed.

What is the Unconditioned and why should you care about it? It is the primordial purity out of which everything expresses, directly or indirectly. It is home! It is the essence of the Divine, of love and of light.

This, as an aside from the book. We’ve come this far in the book, and I know you understand me. But now it gets a little more complex, because we say God is love. We think of the love of the Divine. But please consider:

But the Unconditioned is also the ground out of which the distorted expressions of darkness, fear, and contraction arise. So the Unconditioned Divine essence is the ground for all things, whether contracted or uncontracted, distorted or clear. It is sometimes called the All Ground.

If we acknowledge the non-dual aspect of the Unconditioned, meaning it contains all opposites, or seeming opposites, then darkness must also be an expression of the Unconditioned, although not a direct expression.

The same is true of anger and hatred, of grasping and contraction. Since there is no duality, these are also expressions of the Unconditioned, but they are indirect expressions.

This means the existence of all indirect expressions of the Unconditioned depend on the Unconditioned, and also mundane conditions out of which such objects arise: fear, self-centered thought, the mind that judges, and more.

Now, stepping aside from the book for a moment. If God/Goddess/Divine/Eternal is non-dual and contains everything, the pure expressions of it arise as love, as spaciousness, and all the beautiful experiences that the human has. But because it is subject to the play of conditions, spaciousness subjected to something frightening can lead to contraction. They are non-dual. When contraction releases, the spaciousness is back.

So, as I’ve been teaching for so many years, when anger, fear, any kind of negative thought or body contraction arises, simply hold it in love. There’s nothing to fix. In this way you come back to the innate spaciousness, love, and light.

I’ll read again.

I can only use a mundane or conditioned realm example of the non-dual nature of such expressions. Water has the quality of fluidity. It is not harmful of itself. Air has the quality of spaciousness. It is not harmful of itself. But if winds blow the water to huge waves, those waves may erode the land, sink boats, and cause death.

Another aside, we’re just past Hurricanes Harvey and Irma— not even past them Many people are still suffering, the floodwaters high, people homeless, water flowing through the streets. There is nothing negative about the water. There is nothing negative about the hurricane-force winds; it’s just air. But when they come together, these elements of water and air have created a truly calamitous experience for people.

We do not blame the air. We do not blame the water. We simply know this has all arisen out of conditions. Certain mundane conditions were in place, and so the hurricane arose. People were in a danger zone, so danger arose.

What can we do? We can hold it in love. That’s all we can do. We can hold it in love. The more we’re able to keep our hearts open in love and light to the truly terrible conditions and suffering, the more our energy of love and light can help support healing, rather than add to the contraction and fear.

I return to the book.

Water, air, the sun, sunlight, and everything else that exists are expressions of the Unconditioned. You also are an expression of the Unconditioned. And within you are the direct expressions of the Unconditioned: awareness, spaciousness, light, and love. Within you is also the potential for destruction. When the direct expressions of the Unconditioned are distorted, and mundane forces creep in, then darkness, contraction, fear, and pain may arise.

Herein lies the power of free will and choice. It is the reason for your human experience. The soul grows through intention to enact the expressions of love, light, and spaciousness in service to all beings, and to cease to enact that which is grounded mainly in service to self. Such intention is not easy for the human, for the human is deeply habituated to service to self, and must grow through eons of old conditioning.

Spaciousness, light and love are not the Unconditioned itself but are direct expressions of the Unconditioned. They can lead us to the Unconditioned.

Here a moment of pause, aside from the book. As I read this to you, I am aware, as I was when I dictated it, that there is a lot of repetition. Remember that you are reading many of these things one page at a time, with pause for reflection. I want this to go deep into your heart and consciousness, not just your intellect, and thus I chose to repeat.


The aspect of mind we normally use in everyday life can only know conditioned objects, and cannot know the Unconditioned. But direct expressions such as light and spaciousness have a mundane aspect that our everyday mind can perceive. These expressions serve as a doorway to the Unconditioned. Only awakened consciousness, what we may call pure awareness, can know the Unconditioned directly.

Please read on for further explanation that will aid in understanding.

There are many levels of consciousness. Detailed discussion of them is not within this book. But very briefly, please bear with me for a page.

Every consciousness takes an object. The sense, such as eye or ears, touches the object, and seeing or hearing consciousness arises. The same is true of touch, taste, and smell, and the mind that touches thoughts.

Mundane consciousness, the consciousness associated with the five senses and the mind, is capable of perceiving only mundane objects. However, we may also experience a supramundane consciousness capable of perceiving objects that are above and beyond the mundane, objects such as love, light, spaciousness, and the Unconditioned.

The human lives mostly in mundane consciousness. Then how can we know the Unconditioned directly?

One way is through profound meditation states, when the supramundane consciousness is open. But most people never or only rarely touch those states.

To create a further complexity, when one is deeply resting in the Unconditioned, one usually has little interest in or appreciation of the mundane realm.

Imagine pure water in a deep underground spring. If you could shrink and dive through a long channel into the heart of the spring, you could directly experience that purity. Your entrance in it can slightly affect that purity. Could you carry that perfect water up to the surface for your loved ones, or for your later use? As soon as you bring the water to the surface, you have exposed it to earth, air, and all the impurities of the outer world. It is not the same water.

Or, more correctly, it IS the same water but with mundane realm impurities added. The water at the surface is a direct expression of the spring, with the additives from the conditioned and mundane muddy world.

Just as you must drink the ever-so-slightly tainted spring water from the stream, and cannot drink directly from the underground source, so in mundane consciousness you can only experience direct expressions of the Unconditioned such as spaciousness, light, and love, as reminders of that primordial purity, to know that it is there.

One must know the Unconditioned if one aspires to live from that ground of all things. We can enter the spring through meditation. Awareness rests in the innate perfection of the Unconditioned, free of grasping, and then intention aspires to maintain resting in that radiant reality, even while surrounded by and relating to the mundane realm, with its many distortions.

A skillful way to live is to learn to be in both spaces at once, and to develop awareness of the expressions of the Unconditioned. They are like a road sign that says, “Home: This Way!” Then you know where to turn. The sweetness, radiance, and beauty of these signs of the Unconditioned serve as a beacon, always available when we know where to look.

When those signs are missing, their lack is noted. That consciousness serves as a warning, “Moving into distortion. Take great care.”

The Unconditioned expresses as light and spaciousness. It expresses as loving kindness and compassion. It expresses as boundless generosity. It expresses as joy. It expresses as peace.

These direct expressions of the Unconditioned, while not the Unconditioned itself, are ultimate realities that cannot be destroyed but only pass from our consciousness for a while.

So that is Section I of the book. In October, I’ll read parts of Section II, that goes on to help you with practices to recognize these ultimate realities within yourself, right there with the contraction, the fear, the negativity, and so forth. And how to remind yourself, “I choose the light, not the darkness. I choose kindness, not negativity. I choose love.”

And when you are not choosing, not to berate yourself for that, but simply to recognize, “Whoops! I’ve slipped off the path,” and climb back on.

In the later sections of the book I will offer some very specific practices that will help you. In those Dharma Dialogues, I will offer more discussion than just reading.

Thank you for being with me today. My blessings and love to you, and may this path of clear light bring you home. I love you.

Dharma Journal – May 2017

Dharma Journal teachings from Aaron channeled by Barbara Brodsky

Transcription and closed captioned.

The Three Kayas: Part 2

 My blessings and love to you all. I am Aaron. Thank you for this opportunity to speak with you today.

 Last month I spoke about the three kayas and staying connected with the pure heart, but without fear of connecting to the world. Sometimes it’s not fear of connecting but fear of losing that center, but you can never lose this space of divine consciousness within you.

I promised some suggestions on how to come back into that space in those times where the world has gotten to be too much for you; when you’re constantly rushing around doing this, fixing that, and it seems that the need is never-ending. The need is never-ending. Can you really do more if you let go of the essence of being and become another lost soul screaming for help?

Last month I spoke of the sambhogakaya, or wealth body, the bridge between the divine and the outside mundane world. When we think about a bridge, we think of the whole span of the bridge, and it doesn’t matter if you’re here or here or here on the bridge. But it does matter. The closer you are to the Dharmakaya side of the bridge, to the awakened heart, awakened consciousness, the more stable you are as you walk across.

Think of it as walking out of a very well-heated house on a bitter winter day. There’s a long vestibule. You step through the inner door and immediately it’s cooler. But you’re not freezing yet. You walk, and you walk, and you walk, a 100 yard hallway. The outer door is open. You begin to feel the cold. Perhaps there is something you must do right at the end of the hallway. Last month I used the image of the person who had fallen in the river and needed to be rescued. Well, here’s somebody at the end of the hallway shouting for help. You don’t pay too much attention to the cold. You walk down there and you do what is needed for that person. Then you return to the warmth. Are you going to sit there shivering together at the end of the hallway?

Let’s pretend it’s a child who has fallen and skinned his knees. He’s hurt, he’s bleeding, he’s afraid, and he’s shivering. You will want to pick him up and carry him back toward the warmth. Why would you stay at the end of the hallway by the open door where the winds are screeching and the sleet pouring in? Come back to the warmth.

Some of you have the idea that you can only serve in the world if you jump through that further doorway to suffer with those who are out there suffering. Your suffering does not help anybody, it only adds to the suffering in the world. Come home, come home.

The first step is repeatedly to remember: I can come home. I choose to come home. And also, when you start to feel dispersed, fragmented, and lost from that pure heart, know when you’re losing touch with it. Stop. Time to come home. Coming home can be as simple as: breathing in, I am aware of fragmentation, contraction, and fear. Breathing out, I hold loving space for these experiences. I re-enter the heart of love. I choose to re-enter the heart of love.

Maybe you’re in a conversation with someone who has very opposing views to yours, and he is becoming very angry, starting to flail his arms around and contort his face, using crude words; you feel yourself being sucked into his anger. “I choose to stay connected to love.” Only love can heal. Fear cannot heal. “I choose to stay connected to love.” So, intention in this way is a vital part of the training. Remember to keep re-connecting to your intention.

Trust in your ability to come back to the pure heart, is another part of this. However many times you have fallen off the edge of the hallway and into the blizzard, freezing and needing to scream for help; look at those experiences and remember: I have the capacity to return home.

I’d like you to visualize something for me. Maybe we’ll call it a very short meditation. Imagine yourself sitting in what I call the Dharmakaya, the Unconditioned, the Divine or Christ consciousness, and imagine it as a beautiful cavern of magnificent colors and lights. Beautiful melodies are playing. Imagine yourself sitting right in the cave doorway. As the divine breath breathes itself out, we may remember the line from the Bible: In the beginning was the Word, and the divine breath. Ahhh; feel that breath, ahhh, and with that breath, ahhh, the creation of the world. You move out with that breath.

But, my dear ones, what exhales also inhales. Come back home. Come back home. Why would you have need to do otherwise? So, the second part of the mindfulness is to begin to watch for the places where you begin to forget to come home. Is there an “I should”? “There is so much pain, I should stay out there, no matter how distracted I am becoming”. Is there some kind of a martyr complex in you, something that only feels, “I am only doing good if I am in pain.”? That doesn’t make sense to me. You are love, and you are loved. There is no reason for you to suffer, and your suffering does not benefit others. Quite the contrary, your modeling non-suffering is what helps others most.

Ahhh, and then drawing the breath back in, coming back into the divine heart, and knowing yes, I am whole. Practice with it until you can flow out easily and flow back. Flow out and flow back. You can learn how to do this. It’s not too hard.

Learn how it feels to rest in that space just at the doorway of the Dharmakaya, the beginning of that bridge. Feeling radiating light around you; high energy; the heart open with love, joy, and connection. You may have to do this first just silently in your meditation until it becomes a stable resting place. Then as you venture further out into the world, begin to notice that the further you come from that divine heart, the shakier the footing gets. Go only as far as you feel comfortable, and come home. Do it again, another day, and come home. Gradually you will begin to find yourself more comfortable venturing further out.

Yes, there is enormous suffering in the world. But, as with my earlier image, if you jump off the shore into a raging river to save somebody, and your rope lets your swim a hundred yards downstream, it’s likely going to be beyond your capacity to come back.

I am not suggesting that you work from fear but from wisdom that knows your present capacity, and then is able to keep expanding that capacity. Eventually, yes, you’ll be able to simply swim your way back up the 100 yards of river without the rope. But for now, know what is real for you what you are capable of, and give yourself practice at doing it successfully without losing touch with this pure heart, without losing the radiance and love.

I will pause here. We’ll pick this up again next month. There’s much to add to this. Thank you for your attention.

Dharma Journal – April 2017

Dharma Journal teachings from Aaron channeled by Barbara Brodsky

Transcription and closed captioning.

The Three Kayas: Part 1
Living from the Heart of Love

My blessings and love to you all. I am Aaron. It’s become a real joy to be able to talk to you this way each month. I have many topics I would love to share.

Often, in the course of your daily life, your energy becomes dispersed— your attention, your energy, your focus. Your world is so busy, and it’ s easy for your whole focus to end up out there somewhere (gesturing) rather than centered inside.

People go to meditation retreats, where the energy is deep within, very still. From that place, it sometimes becomes difficult to move out and attend to the taking out the garbage or cleaning up the overflowed toilet.

People sometimes ask me, where is the best place for my focus to be? Shall I be within my heart, resting in stillness? Shall I be out there and taking care of the millions of needs in the world? My reply is always: both.

There is a simultaneity of the ultimate realm, in which you rest in the divine heart, and of the relative realm, present with the mundane world. The challenge is to learn balance, how to rest in both places at the same time.

I usually try to avoid technical words, but there are three words in a Buddhist teaching that I find very helpful, and they’re not complex words. First, the root word kaya, which means body. There are many kinds of bodies. Dharmakaya means truth body, the body of the Dharma. You may think of this as the divine essence, the Unconditioned, divine consciousness, Christ consciousness. On the other end of the spectrum is nirmanakaya. Nirmana means form, so nirmanakaya is the form body, the outer body.

Don’t leave me! I can feel that some of you are saying, “Eh, too many technical words, Aaron. Too many formal words.” Bear with me; only one more, sambhogakaya. This is usually translated specifically as wealth body. What does that mean? Think of the Dharmakaya on one side of a ravine and the nirmanakaya on the other. To get from this truth body, from the heart, out into the practical world, you need a bridge. Sambhogakaya is the bridge. But it carries all the riches of the Divine heart out into the world, thus, wealth body.

All right, you have my terminology. Now let’s put that aside and understand what it means, how we use it.

I want to start with what I hope will be a clear example. Imagine you are meditating beside a swiftly flowing river. There have been heavy rains so the water is flowing fast. You’re sitting on the bank beside a big tree that leans out over the river, meditating; in a space of deep peace, watching the water flow by. You hear the sounds of the rippling of the water and the wind blowing in the trees. You have been sitting and walking and sitting again for hours, and you’re very still.

In the distance you suddenly hear screaming. “He’s fallen in! He’s fallen in! Save him!” What are you going to do?

You happen to have a very long rope with you. You don’t know why you brought it, but you brought it. You tie one end of the rope around the tree. You tie the other end of the rope around your waist. Remember, this is a fierce current, flowing fast. If you jump in there and you have 100 yards of rope, it’s going to quickly swing you 100 yards downstream. How will you get back? On the other hand, if you only give yourself 10 feet of rope, how will you reach the person who has fallen in and is going to be floating past, hoping you can save him?

How much is just enough? Perhaps you give yourself 20 or 30 feet of rope, tie it around your waist. And then you see the person coming down the river, bobbing up and down, screaming, “Help me! Help me!” Do you jump in immediately and let yourself swing to the whole end of the 30 feet? Or will you wait until they’re approaching and judge how much rope you really need, only emerging from that tree, that still, strong place, out into the water as far as is needed?

The person sweeps toward you and you jump in, only releasing as much rope as is needed so that you can grab him, a child. You pull him to you. You’re still holding the rope, too, so it doesn’t open further. You hold him until he feels secure. You ask him to hold you tight around the neck, and then you take the rope and pull yourself in. The current is tugging at you, but it’ s only about 15 feet. You’re not too far from that secure, deep place of safety. Pull yourself in. Put the child on the bank, pull yourself up on the bank.

I think you understand my metaphor here. If we leap out from the Dharmakaya from this stillness of our hearts and deepest place within, fully distracted by the, “Help! Help!” of the world, how will we get ourselves back? If we keep ourselves tied to the shore, how can we reach and touch what needs support in the world? There must be a balance.

I find it works best to live as close to the Dharmakaya as is possible, which skill comes from daily meditation, really understanding what that truth body is, that place of love within you, but without fear of jumping into the raging river, when it’s needed. Only, you must maintain a connection to the Dharmakaya or you will drown.

It’s so easy to become dispersed by fear. You jump into the stream, and immediately there seem to be not one but a thousand voices screaming, “Help! Help! Help!” Your world is in such chaos. If you do not maintain daily connection to the divine heart within through meditation practice, through mindfulness, through the practice of loving kindness and more, it’s so easy to lose it.

We begin to look at the ways that fear and reactivity to fear lead us to lose that connection. Is there anyone to whom I am speaking who has not felt dispersed in that way in the world in the past week, with anxiety, with confusion? “How do I fix this? What shall I do?” It happens.

The challenge is not that it happens but how you may bring yourself back. The first step is knowing that this dispersion happens. The second step is knowing the intention not to lose the clear space within. How can you really lose it? It’s there. It’s always been there. It is the essence of your being, and beyond that, the essence of Being. If you think you can lose it, if you are afraid you can lose it, you will lose it. The first step is knowing that you cannot lose it. To know that you cannot lose it, you need to know how it feels to rest there.

People speak sometimes of losing their balance. Could anybody lose their balance who did not understand what balance felt like? A one year old toddling with her first steps, she doesn’t think, “I will lose my balance.” She just walks, and she plops down when she can’t walk any further. But she sees people around her upright and walking so she knows, “I can do that.” She has no fear, “I will lose my balance”, no story about that. She only knows, “I will walk”, and so she does.

We find different practices and supports to bringing us back to this center. One is by reflecting on the places in which you feel most centered, in love, in kindness, in ease in the world. And these are probably the times when you are feeling joy, gratitude, and connection to others, not separation.

What seems to happen for the human, though, is that when separation that comes from anger, or grief, or confusion, when it arises, you pull into a smallness. Basically, you separate from yourself. And as soon as you’re separated from yourself, you’re separated from everything. And then, from that place of separation you’re at the end of the rope, now 100 yards downstream with the current pulling at you. No longer is the child calling, “Help!”; you’re also calling, “Help!” You’re afraid the rope will break and send you over the waterfall.

Instead, you jump in with the short rope, and knowing, “I am safe, and I have the capacity to save this child. If he comes anywhere near me, I will reach out to him.” You can’t swim, the current is too fast. You can’t swim 100 yards across the river. If he’s at the far shore, you can’t reach him. If he comes near you, you can reach him.

We learn to trust. Holding the intention that the current bring the child to me, I will venture far enough out into the river to grab him and bring him back. This is possible. I choose it. And then I do it. Can you see then the energy never becomes contracted with fear? There’s a strong statement: I thusly choose. I know that this is possible and I choose it. I co-create it with the universe. And I have not left that divine heart to move into a place of fear and separation, nor of ego. I choose. I bring it into being. And it comes into being not from me, the personal self, but from the ground of love into which I am connected.

Think of the meaning of these three kayas in your life, and continue to hold the intention to rest deeply in the divine heart of love, even as you step out to be active in the world, to take care of yourself and others, always with love and not fear.

Next month I will speak further on this. Thank you for being with me today.

Dharma Journal – January 2017

The Year of Light

Aaron channeled by Barbara Brodsky Transcription: January 11, 2017. Monthly Dharma Talk (Not yet reviewed by Barbara and Aaron)

Transcription, video is also closed captioned:

January 11, 2017

The Year of Light

My blessings and love to you. I am Aaron.

When I look out the window, I see light. Radiance everywhere. But some people turn themselves away from the window and they say, “No, the world is dark, Aaron.” We each have a choice whether to recognize the innate light that floods everything or to carry ourselves in a place of darkness.

I would like to name this year, “The Year of Light”. I think I have done that before, but let’s carry through deeper on it this year. What does it mean to recognize that you are Light?

There is a beautiful poem by the Sufi poet, Kabir. I’d like the share the beginning stanzas.

The Guest is inside you, and also inside me.
You know the sprout is hidden inside the seed.
We are all struggling; none of us has gone far.
Let your arrogance go, and look around inside.
The blue sky stretches out further and further.
The daily sense of failure goes away.
The damage I have done to myself fades.
A million suns come forth with light
When I sit firmly in that world.

We all sit firmly in that world. This is our innate place of being. We are light. What prevents us from recognizing that light? What keeps us lost in the darkness? Let’s explore that a bit together, but with a reminder that you always have a choice to be the light that you are or to disclaim that light and say, “No, I am darkness, I am limited.”

The world surrounds us with catalyst, sometimes challenging; words and actions that bring forth pain, fear, and anger, that lead you to feelings of limitation and helplessness. There is so much habit energy in being helpless and small. Why are you afraid to be big? I am not suggesting that you allow the negativity in you to be big, but that you can allow the love within you to be big. What if it bursts forth and shines everywhere?

So much of this is simply habit, the habit to remain dim and small. For the spiritual seeker who aspires to live life with love and non-harm, I think the habitual pattern to stay small is an outgrowth of discomfort with negative emotions that you recognize have not yet been fully resolved.

This one pushes you. Anger arises, wanting to lash out at the other person. Then, “Oh no, I can’t do that,” and you diminish yourself and your energy. The pattern is unconscious. What if, when you feel that push and you feel that (gesture), want to lash out, you just remind yourself, “This not my highest intention. I am light. I am love.” But remember also that light and love are powerful. This is the ground of compassion.

So you have that push, anger, and then, “No, I will not respond from the place of anger.” And saying to the other, not anger (hits screen), but, “No, you may not speak to me that way. No.” Let your light shine forth, and say this compassionately, yet very powerful “No.” I can’t guarantee you that the other will stop what he or she is doing, but you have not contributed any more negativity to the situation, only kindness.

If the other is greeted with that “No” often enough, eventually something will shift in him or her. How many times can somebody push you, be met with, “No,” push you again so you fall over on the ground, and you pick yourself up, dust yourself off, walk back up to them and say, “No.”? They may punch you, they may try to beat you up, because they’re so afraid of the power that you wield when you say, “No.”

But something else can happen, and it’s so beautiful. Eventually that “No” brings forth a remembrance of their own. At some point they will catch your eye, and your radiance will draw forth their own radiance, and something in them will reverberate with your light. They will begin, just begin— the “seed inside the sprout.” They will remember, “Oh, I am also light.” It may not be a conscious thought, but the anger in them will diminish a bit. They’ll start to look away.

Barbara tells a beautiful story. This is probably 1960 or ’61, somewhere in the Deep South with a group of others, integrating a small southern restaurant. They sat in the restaurant meditating. Everybody had gone out except the manager. An angry crowd was outside. They knew that people had been badly beaten trying to integrate this restaurant in previous weeks, so they knew there was real danger. They were prepared to accept that danger because of the strong intention to bring light and love to the situation.

They meditated, the four of them, for half an hour. All seemed to be ready at once. Barbara could hear then, she could hear the anger outside. She knew there would be people with rotten fruit and wooden clubs and stones.

The four of them came to the door. She was so filled with compassion for these people— not pity, not anger; compassion. These were people deeply in pain. Their beliefs and way of life were being threatened. But the light in her was willing to say no to this. The power of satyagraha, soul force. Gandhi coined that term, soul force.

So they walked to the door. And one of her most powerful memories is coming out and looking at people in the eye, seeing the anger, the fear in their faces, and being able to greet it— no words, no “No,” just looking in the eyes of one person after another. And they could not meet her gaze. Eyes dropped. The weapons in their hand dropped. It wasn’t shame that she was drawing forth, it was a memory that they also were light.

She was not shaming them; their own recognition of who they were caused them to feel some shame about the person they had become. So they dropped the weapons, they stepped back, and the four people walked through to the waiting car and drove away. She remembers this as one of the most powerful memories of her life, the one that really taught her the power of inner light and love. You are that.

Many of you have expressed concern, with the coming inauguration, of what the next years will bring with a leadership that seems more inclined to give voice to negative thought and hostility toward others. I cannot say I’m delighted that this man will be your president, but I think it’s perfect, because he is a mirror for you. He is the angry crowd gathered outside and you are the person walking out the door, and able to walk out, not with hostility and anger in yourself, but with full confidence both of the light within you and the light within him. I do not imagine that this man is going to easily be transformed to know his inner light, but that could happen.

But it’s not about the president-elect, it’s about all of the people in your society who are feeling so much fear and pain and anger, like the crowd drawn outside that restaurant, that they are looking for somebody strong to fix the fear and anger that they feel in situations that elicit it. These are the people to whom your light can speak. But it cannot speak to them until you uncover it in yourselves and let it shine forth.

This light is your essence, you cannot lose it, although you have temporarily lost track of it a bit. What does it mean to keep yourself small? What if you are that light? What if you are all-powerful? And yes, you have not yet resolved your negative emotions. It means that you must be increasingly responsible to any negativity in yourself, able to experience that negativity as arising thought, arising energy, and simply hold space for it until it resolves. You can practice with this on a daily basis. The itch, wanting to scratch— can you just hold space for it? The angry words that somebody said to you— I’m not saying don’t respond, but don’t respond until you hold space and it is not anger and ego responding but love. So each of you has the ability to go deeper and deeper into the essence of love and light within you. You cannot lose it, it is your essence. The darker it gets, the more important to remember your light.

Imagine us entering a cave through a big doorway. The sun is behind us shining light deep into the cave so we easily walk in. You’ve been told there is some cherished treasure— now I’m not speaking of gold here but something really important, something beautiful, that you will find deeper within the cave. So we walk in together. 25 yards, it’s still lit up; 50 yards, 75 yards— it’s beginning to get dark. But you can still turn around and look over your shoulder and see the sun shining through the doorway. So no matter where you are in the cave, you can always turn around and find the doorway. That’s step one.

Eventually, in every life, the cave turns and you lose sight of the doorway. Here we are at that space where the cave turns a corner. Pause here. I am light, I am love. We are light. We are love. Can you feel it? We are light. We are love. We will not be diminished.

Now join hands and let us walk around the corner. Notice that moment of fear, suddenly pitch black and you don’t know which way the cave mouth was. You knew you turned right, but could you turn the correct degree of right to go back around the corner and out? Fear. Ahhh…breathing in, I am aware of the fear, breathing out, I hold space for the fear. Opening, opening… feel the increasing spaciousness, and literally feel the light that you are shining forth. All of you, holding hands, creating a circle of light. You can never lose that light, it’s your essence. Within that light there is enough to retrieve perhaps a lost child in the cave that’s fallen to the floor unconscious. There he is. You go in and pick him up. You lift him up, and your light is enough to turn you back around and walk around the curve, and there is the sunlight again. Emerging into the sunlight.

You really have to be in the darkness to know the power of your light. When you’re in the sunlight, it’s easy, you rely on the external light. But when you are in the darkness in a place of grief, of fear, of confusion, your inner light is vital. When I call this the “Year of Light”, what I am asking, inviting, really, is each of you, especially when it becomes dark, to take the time to remember: I am light, I am love. And that light can never be diminished because it is that light of the Guest within me and you, the Divine within me and you. It can never be lost. When I speak from that light, I transform myself, those around me, and the world.

This is the power you have, in these somewhat shaky times in the world, not knowing what the future will bring in your country. Aware of the increasing violence throughout the world, with the seeming increasing hatred in the world. I invite you to find the source of your power, which is not yours, but the power, of love. And remember that you are undefeatable when you rest in that power. But it is never a power that you can use for your own personal gain or to harm others. It is only the power that all beings have that speaks from the loving heart. And it’s such a joy to rest in that space. …”A million suns come forth with light when I rest firmly in that world.” This is your birthright. Enjoy it and use it well.

Thank you.